Full Narrative by ATHI Recipient

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The beauty of this course is starting with the Assessments as they pertain to each Chakra. Starting with the assessments helped me name the blocks that were interfering with my growth and happiness, the “issue(s)” that were holding me back. This gave me a starting point – the block I chose was Root Chakra 1 – Sense of Belonging.

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I had no idea the impact this block was having on my life, and the subsequent benefit doing the course work provided. Although I scored high in Sense of Belonging, I really didn’t notice how it affected me until I became aware of it. I then started realizing how I felt so different in a group, how I really beat myself up with my perceived wrong doings, how I compared myself to others, how I felt so not good enough. I knew I could feel awkward in groups, and there were plenty of times I felt like heading for the exit, but I didn’t understand how negatively this block affected me.

 

Of course you have to “do the work”. This should be called “do the healing”.

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As I began moving through the ABS on Belonging, and doing the healing with the help of daily journalling, many things began to shift. One of the most important things I noticed was that I started looking inward, rather than looking and blaming outwardly. These people didn’t include me, these people are mean, these people are cliquey, and finding when I was in situations where I felt awkward, that I wanted to bolt. Before attending my curling game, I would journal. I journaled about how I was valuable, how I belonged, how I was included, how I was an important team member, how people wanted me there, how I did the best I could…..

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I bring my Soul vision with me everywhere I go. My Soul vision is a reminder to me, that I am not alone, I am supported. Any time I felt less than, or various other negative feelings, I could summon my Soul Vision for support.

And it happened !!! My experience greatly improved. My attitude about myself and others began to change. I had more fun. Now, don’t get me wrong, the old beliefs about being not good enough, and not belonging, they still showed up. But because I was prepared for them, I was able to soothe them and remind them that we are okay. We are safe and important. I think one of the most important shifts during this time was practically eliminating negative talk about others – because I was no longer putting my feelings into their hands. My experience was in my hands. I was prepared when I participated. I was ready.

Doing the healing in this block, just naturally led into the healing work of other blocks, issues that had plagued me my whole life and really caused havoc in my relationships. My new found confidence in belonging, naturally led to not taking things personally, as I continued to practice my new skill of “keeping it about me”. Not looking outward, but inward, took away the need to be Validated – seeking approval – slowly but surely I was my own Validator !!!

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Staying focused on ME as the healer, with the support of the course opened up my life. How do you describe to someone that one day you are living in Fear, and as you do the course, and your confidence grows, fear’s voice is muted by your own trusting voice? I began to Trust myself more and more. I knew that I could depend on myself no matter what happened. Of course, I could be sad if something went south, but this course taught me that I can rely on myself. I think this is the biggest gift ! The trust I feel toward myself. Again, I am not all caught up in the fear of others and what they will or won’t do.

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My personal relationships have shifted a great deal having done the healing work. I have learned that other people have a voice – that they have a perspective, and because I no longer feel less than, or that I don’t belong, I am able to be more empathetic and compassionate. The funny part is I thought I was these things before the course. I was but not on this level. This is a different level of being. This course brought me into myself, more about my authentic self, not the person who had to protect themselves.

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Working with this course, as I do every day, has been a liberation from fear, from anger, from mistrust – to a life of understanding, patience, acceptance, safety!